I went back to the nerve agent traning center

So yesterday I went through the nerve agent chamber. They have VX and G nerve agents in large quantities in every room inside the live agent part of the facility. It was interesting to go back for a second time. This time I did not fail at all. I got a blessing and was told that no matter what I would be able to complete the training. Every time I started to get anxious or overheated, or anything I would just pray or think God said I could do this and that there would be an angel or something there to help me out and there was. It was real cool cause every time I prayed or anything the anxiety or heat would just dissapate it would flow away from me like so much water. It was a very enriching experience.
This person was so evil that just by her presence can bring a very bad spirit into the room no matter the size of the room. Also no matter the distance from the person you could feel the evil from this person who was in charge of my life for the past 16 weeks. She purposfully lied to me and her superiors to get me to go back through this training. The reason this is so bad is that she purposfully put me into a very dangerous situation. She did it hoping that I would fail. One of the most interesting things is that she did not make her friend the class suck up go through the process again. This whole thing is very unpleasant by the way. The whole being in the protective gear and doing all that crap is very very unpleasant.
However in spite of all this I have learned several very important things. Firstly that before I had a great amount of faith in Gods ability to be with me and actually take away my dicomofort and make my body do things that I did not think it could do now I know it. I have seen it and felt it in my own life. Second thing I have learned is how to deal with someone who hates you and is out to get you in any way possible merely because that person can and that person sees in me someone who is smarter and nicer and not intimidated by them. The third reason is that I am learning that it really is hard to frogive and move on when someone just wants to cause as much harm professionally and personally to you as possible. I am still learning how to forgive but I think I will be able to do it.
Also When I was leaving to go to the Chamber yeasterday I invited a guy from croatia to church and he accepted So I really hope that he shows up.
All in all it was not a bad experience there were plenty of bad times and unpleasant experiences. However God can make some very bad things in the end turn out to be good things. It might takes some time but 16 weeks is not that much in the eternities. But man when you are going through it it sure seems like it is taking forever.
peace

Back to the Gas Chamber

Hello all, Chris is going back to the Sarin Chamber today and it is a super scary thing so please keep him in your prayers. He is there right now and this is his second time through, which isn't fair to him. Your prayers will help him be strong!

one step at a time

That is how you have to take life. If you try and take a few jumps at a time you fall over and skin your knee or your face or something gets hurt, falling down does not feel good. This does not mean you can not plan for the future just like the hiker who hikes 100 miles he takes it one step at a time but he plans for the trip. During the creation the Father and the Son both planned the entire thing first then they executed it one step at a time. I think that is the purpose one step a time this life will unfold and come to pass. The future is there but it is the future. The present is where we live. One day at a time we live here and now. It also seems that as I get older time goes faster. Sometimes I wish time would slow down that the present would be more present and go slower.

today I failed at something for the first time in forever

So today my Chemical class had to go and get gassed by a chemical agent Sarin and G agents. I did about half of it and then almost passed out. I hope it was because it was ridiculously hot in their in the suit and all the crap we had to wear. I really hope it was not because I could not handle the pressure. I do not think it was but I do not know. Damn. I feel so crappy. I have not failed at anything in forever. I do not want to go back to that place. It sucks. really bad What bothers me is that I was praying the entire time to be able to pass and complete it. I do not know if that prayer was answered I will find out tomorrow. I do not know what the standards are. I so do not want to go back there. I honestly do not know what to do. I really do no know what to do. I have prayed and all I feel like is that it will be ok. I do not know what that means. I do not want to go back there. It is in an enclosed facility all blockaded dull and gray. double walls all the way around. there is no way out there is no escape there is nothing but the agent. and your gear which does protect you. It keeps you alive. The gear does its job. Damn. I wish I had not gotten sick today. I wish I just had it done. I do not know what to do. what am I to do. I do not want to go back. I might have to. does this mean my prayers were in vain. why would God want me to go back there and do that crap again. why does it scare me so much? I know in my head the gear works I have lasted for much longer in a more constrstrictive suit. what is with the stupid chamber and the agents in there that bother me so much. what is wrong with me that I can not do what so many others have done? Does this mean that because God did not answer my prayer he wants me to go back. Or will they decide tomorrow that I do not have to go back at all? If I have to go back why would God want me to do that? What purpose would he have in making me go back into that place? What am I to pray about? What am I to ask for from God comfort? the ability to not go back to not go back? what is it that I must do?

Wow this new president looks cool

So I was doing some research on Obama and his goals for the next 4 years. And it is very impressive. http://change.gov/americaserves/ that is just one example of the kind of thing he is planning on doing. http://change.gov/page/s/yourvision on that page you can input your ideas. On another page you can tell a story of how you like Obama. I mean it is absolute Genius incredible. I really hope he can make his goals. Some of his things I do not like for example the increase in taxes however if he can do all the other things then I can take one or two bad things. I hope that he does not try in infringe on our right to bear arms though that will really piss me off.
But I hope that is all crap spouted by the opposition to his presidency. Only the future will tell, but I am hopeful that this is a turn for the better. I am very hopeful.
peace

it is getting cold here

It is getting cold here and I need to clean out my ride before tomorrow so I can find my pt hat so my head does not freeze tomorrow morning when it is below zero outside and we do friggin pt
One day I will be out of the army
You know I have been thinking I wonder how I am going to pay for school
that is a good question I think
I mean it is not cheap to go to school nor is it cheap to provide housing and food for ones family.
we spend probably 500 a month on food and I eat more then everyone else in the house at this time. that will change one day but for now I eat more.
I sure do wish that I had a wad of cash saved up so that I could just go to college get a degree in vet medicine and then start a practice somewhere.
Will probably end up going to byu simply cause it is cheaper then everywhere else.
hopefully britta can get the chance and we have the ability for her to go to school.
I wonder how it will all work out
peace

what is in a title

So i did not feel like typing a better title to this blog.
Yesterday was a pretty nice bike ride day. Went out and found a new trail. The trail went really far back into the bush I did not get close to the end. It was getting dark so I came back out. I love exploring new places it makes me feel like a real man like I am alive like I do not know but It is awesome. When I came out I just stopped and offered a prayer of gratitude like the confrence talk said i think it was E. Bednar I do not remember said we should every so often just give a prayer of thanks and gratitude without and requests and I did that I gave thanks for all the beauty that was around me from the wind that rustled through the leaves to the clouds that formed a frame to the moon. To the crickets and other wildlife running around. Then I went on to thank God for my wonderful family and wife and kids that teach me so much and help me to be a better person then I thanked him for my friends that are so great. Then I returned to the area around me again and thanked him for the Trees I love trees they are so beautiful and perfect in their many different varieties. I could not ever live in a place with no trees I think I would lose my mind. It was great and I felt really good afterwards. It was good. So by following the council of the apostle whomever he is. I was blessed not with anything great or magnificent but with a happiness and generaly a good feeling. It was very nice.
I can not wait to see my family again They are so awesome. I miss them so much.
love you all
peace

today is another day

So what to blog about today. I do not know. The library on base here has 8600 different DVDs to borrow from and a huge section of books. I just found this out. I have been checking out DR. Who the BBC series. It is pretty good sometimes it is kinda freaky and scary but mostly good adventure stuff. Yesterday I waxed half of the truck tomorrow I think I might do the other half I can see a difference in the way the paint looks. Now I just have to get sometihng to take out all the chips in the paint.
Well My life is pretty boring 20 days until my wonderful family comes down here and stays with me. That will be very very nice.
peace
chris

today is a beautiful day

It is such a nice day outside. I wish that I did not have to go to work tomorrow. Cause I would so be outside fishing and hiking. And really just enjoying the world. Tomorrow night monday night I have staff duty from 4 in the afternoon till 7 the next morning. That is a long time and I have a test on tuesday. I hope that one day I will be able to take time off and enjoy my life and enjoy the world and my family. There was this guy in church today that used to be a tough army guy and had a physical job his entire life. Well one day he broke his neck while doing sometihng with the FBI and he got medically retired. So his wife had to go out and enter the work force however he said it was a great blessing for him cause he had the chance to be the stay at home dada and really raise up his youngest daughter from 6 months old till now she is 9 and she is his best little friend and they have a really good bond. I just thought that that was pretty cool that he was able to take something like that and change it into something good.
Well peace out yall
chris

interesting

Sometimes when I feel as though my friends and family have been offended I find it very hard to control my temper however I think I did a very good job in my response to that guy that posted. The response follows.


You know what I find most interesting concerning my last blog. Is that the person who responded and corrected me about posting the information did so without giving me a chance to recant or change. Rather he very publicly instigated a fight. That if you look at the comments of my very good friends got the result that he wanted. Congratulations Sir you got a fight. I do not wish to debate you on the points you presented for you were correct. I admit it and I deleted the information presented. However your methodology was incorrect. I unknowingly did something that could possibly have caused some consternation to the work of the Lord. Rather then calling me out in a public format would it not have been more appropiate to simply send me an e-mail or in some other less obvious way not that the information was wrong. If there was no other way then the way you chose should not yor words have been chosen a little more in the spirit of the message.
I say this because I looked at your blog profile it says you are from South Jordan in Utah. I do not know how often you have been outside of Utah but I have many friends that are not members of this church. And what you said and the manner in which you said it would have seriously offended almost every single one of them. I am a member and am ok with being wrong. I do not mind the Lord or the Lords servants correcting me. Heaven Knows I need it. However your apperent attitude with those people that I love far more then you know is unacceptable. Your callisnouss in the name of right is also unacceptable. Not everyone will ever be foreced to accept Jesus it is simply aginst the rules of the kingdom of God. I could be misreading what you wrote but I do not think I am. I am in effect asking you to either apoligize to my friends for your attitude or very kindly not post again on this blog. I do this in a public manner so that my friends will know that my love for them surpasses the bounds of being wrong. For I honestly do not mind being wrong. I am human and I admit it. However I will not stand for someone who in the name of Righteousness offends those who are not in need of offense. Once again it is not your words that have ginven umbrage it is your attitude in the presentaion of those words. You called me out publicly I have admitted my error and retracted the un-offical statement as requested by the chosen leaders of my faith. Now if you do not wish to publicly ask forgivness for the offense that you have caused then I ask you to not post again on this blog.
To my friends I do love you and hope the best for you I also hope that this person's attitude will not give you any more reason to argue or fight for fighting is very rarely worth it.
My father was offended once and has since gone the way of many others. An apolgy many years ago wether or not the other person was correct or not could have saved decades of pain and who knows he might actually still be a member.
I love this church and I do know it is the only true church on the face of the planet. The members however are not.
I also know that Christ lives and loves us and is very willing to work with our weaknesses and help them to become strengths.
I love my friends and I love my wife. I am so blessed to have them in my life.
I do not know where I would be without them I love them and am so gratefull for them
peace

Recovery

Yesterday after I wrote that blog. Britta told me to take a nice long bath and relax. Well I got in the bath tub and started to relax and realized I was Falling asleep. Then I thought well this IS relaxing but then i thought if I fall asleep I could slip right under the water. Hmmmm that did not sound good. So I in a kinda groggy state got up and went over to my bed and fell right on top of the covers and everything, and passed out for five hours. When I woke up Britta was calling me I thought I had just fallen asleep. So I woke up and realized man i was asleep for 5 hours. Wow I was tired.
Today I went to church and spoke in sacrament meeting I tried to tell some stories but they did not seem to work to well. I think it was cause I was feeling rushed. I was told I was the closing speaker but I was the middle one instead so I got cut from 20 min to 10. And my friggin feet hurt.
But i mostly think it was cause I was feeling rushed. I wore crocks to church today and it was great should do it more often. Crocks are very comfortable.
I sure do love my family.
I get to have Britta and Taiten and Kaia come down in less then a month. great of greatness.
I am so looking forward to that. It has become the motivation for my day to day dealing with the idiots that are here.
I sure do love them and miss them so very much.
peace

I did it

I did it I did my 19 miles in 4hrs and 20 min. with a ruck on and the stupid army boots. I am so cool. My feet are really hurting right now but at least I made it it was hard. The hardest thing was not the weight or the distance but it was the feet. they were sucking it. I could have gone even farther if my feet had not hurt so bad. I do not know how those pioneers did it the settlers and everyone it seems so darn hard to do with army boots and think of the crappy shoes they had. not fun
well I am off to write a talk for tomorrow
peace

ruck march on saturday

I have 18.5 miles of hiking in army uniform and crap on saturday with a light ruck but it is still almost 20 miles. I have about 5 hours to do it in too. It does not sound like fun at all. but i got some candy and tomorrow gonna go buy a camel back so i have water. and saturday morning I will take some Ibprofein and pray for the next 5 hours I can make it. My feet hate walking in those stupid army boots. You think as much walking as soldiers do they would come up with something that worked better.
One day I am going to get the nice boots
but until then I ruck on with a heavy load
wish me luck one and all
peace
chris

willing to be what I want to be

I talked to Britta and she has this sheet of problems and things that could be effecting the energy in the body. What we talked about for me was "willing to be what I want to be" This is interesting as I have been really worried about the future and being what I want to be. I would really like to be a Veterinarian. however the road to get that far will be very demanding for my family as well as myself. More so for my family as the requirements put on me while in Vet school will be very large. I am worried how everything will work out in the end. This is something that we will have to work out. The other option is staying in the military either the Air Force or the Coast Guard. I do not really want to do it but it is the safe route. So really what we discovered is that I have to have the courage and faith to be what I want to be even though it may be the harder route. Less secure and less stable in the interim. But we shall see what happens. Whatever happens I have to be willing to be what I really want to be. That means make the sacrifices to make it happen.
By the way this took three days to write.

well well well

It has been a long time since I blogged. mostly because the last several weeks have been really really busy. Now I can not seem to make this thing go off Italics. I just got done with a test and have a few extra min to do some work in preparation for the rest of the day. But that sucks so i decided to blog a little bit. Got to go out with the missionaries yesterday. Helped to teach an older woman who did not want to know if Joesph Smith really saw God or not. She said she did however I do not think she wanted to as she did not want to pray about it and would not commit to it. But we can always hope that people are pricked in the hearts.
Britta just put up a whole bunch of pictures of them in Mexico. However I do not see near enough of them of you Britta and almost none of you guys at the beach more pictures.
I calculated it out to how many days I have till thanksgiving. I have 27 days of classes left. That does not include the week or so in the field. After Thanksgiving it is mostly outprocessing and getting ready to leave this place. Ft Leonard Wood is not a bad place it is the job that sucks.
One day I will have a job that I look foreward to doing.
I looked into the Coast Guard. I could get a direct commission into the MI field for them. Will look into it more. As it would be really nice to retire at 41. There are more important things but that would be nice.
I am still working on being a vet. The hurdles for that job seem to be a bit higher.
I am so happy that britta is coming day after tomorrow. It is only 2 days away but it seems like an eternity. It would be so great to never have to be away from my family. I can not imagine how our Father in Heaven feels. I know that to be seperated from my wife and kids hurts so bad. It is such a great blessing to be a husband and father. I am more happy now as a part of this family then ever before. I wish that we could be together more often. But that is in the future it seems.
A goal to shoot for.
peace

I messed up my truck

Today as I was backing out of the auto hobby shop on post, where I went to save some money by rotating my tires and doing all my own work on my beautiful suburban. Well I did all that and got it put back together and was pulling out and on the passenger side there was a support pillar that I did not have much clearance on about 6-8 inches or so. Well I pulled out and cut the wheel over to back out into my lane and I heard the crunching sound and I went oh man. I caught the last few inches of my front right quarter panel and the bumper on the very edge of the pillar. Messed up my quarter panel and took off my bumper about halfway and cracked my grill and broke a light. In the end for all new parts about 1600 according to the people at the shop. That is way to much so I am gonna get some parts from E-Bay and do it myself. Save a lot of money and I will learn all about the front end of the Suburban. Never had to do any of that before.
This sucks as the parts are still expensive however it is cheaper than having the insurance agency do it for me. That Sucks.
And my father said he knows of a body shop up where he lives that will paint it all up for me real nice for not to expensive.

890 days left

HA
you know as an adult I expect certain things from other people.
The first thing is I expect to be treated as an adult. I am not that old about 28 however I have seen and done a fair amount of stuff in my life. I do not need to be treated like a child.
The next thing I expect is to be allowed to do my job. My job right now is to learn how to be a chemical officer in the United States army. In order to do this I do not need to be ridiculed I do not need to be punished for some other person's mistakes. I do not need to show up to work 30 or 45 min early to prove that I am ready to work. What I need is a clear goal and the means to execute that goal.
The next thing is be treated as a professional. I admit it when I am wrong. I expect other professional people to be able to admit it as well. Even if they refuse to admit it then be a mature person and do not punish me or other people simply because your mental capacity is to small to understand what we are trying to say.
I know this is to much for many people and impossible for most people in leadership in the Army. This simply adds in one more reason why I will be getting out of the army in 890 days

today was a day

Today for the first time in forever I had a couple of hours of down time. After waking up at 0430 or so and then pretty much being at work from 05005 until about 6 at night I got home and relaxed. These long days really take it out of you. I had Mac N Cheese for dinner cause it was easy. While I was eating dinner I pulled out my chinese and did some more studying. I really like Chinese I wish the reading part was easier. My brain is so taxed memorizing all the crap for chemical school it is hard to get it to focus on Chinese. My brain is weak it needs push ups.
I have to get another Chinese Book of Mormon I seem to have misplaced mine. You can orde the 3 n 1 combination from church distribution correct?
I did my laundry now it is drying soon I will have clean dry clothes. And as soon as it is done I am gonna read some scriptures and go to sleep.
You know one day I will look foreward to going to sleep not beacuse it means I do not have to think about my Job but beacause it means tomorrow I get to go to work. That is one of my goals in life to have a job I really like to wake up in the morning to go and do. Not even every day just most days.
peace

today i was the wind

HaHaHa not really I just ran really fast did a 1300 min 2 mile. It was the fastest I have ran in several years. All the time I was thinking I have to impress britta. I was also thinking please God help me finish in time and come on body do this for me do not puke yet. Then I came back to the place where I live and passed out for about one hour cause I was so exhausted.
I woke up at 0230 and could not get back to sleep. I tried everything. even that meditation thing did not help. I am gonna be so tired today. and my guts hurt but other than that it is a great monday. I did run really fast. Yea Me
peace ya'll

two posts for one day read them both

So I got a new calling today. I was shocked when I heard it......................I am building the suspense. I was called as the new teacher for the 6 year olds. The CTR 6 class. hahaha that is interesting. I have never been called as a teacher for little kids in fact I have never had to teach little kids anything at all except for my own children and sometimes I really suck at that. So we shall see how this works. Little kids have very short attention spans. I am going to have to learn to tell some really cool stories if I am going to be able to keep their attention for very long. I have never felt more overwhelmed with any calling then I feel now. interesting.
You know what keeps us going in the midst of everything I have discovered it is Love wether it is love of ourselves love of God love of our families but love I think is the root motivator for just about every action we take. I sure as heck would not be doing this job if I did not think that it would somehow benifit my family. A person can put up with a lot of crap for those that they love.
Even hope has a basis in love and love has a basis in hope. Of all the emotions of human capabilities I think love and hope are the two most basic good emotions.

went to the river

Well yesterday I went fishing in the river. It was a lot of fun and very very relaxing. UNtil the end when we decided to go over a small dam and waterfall thing with rapids at the base of the waterfall. The dam was only about 4 or 5 feet high so it did not seem to bad. However we did flip our canoe and ended up stuck on some rocks trying to put our canoe aright while all the water in the river rushed over it. That was not easy at all!! Took about 30 min or so to get it right. But I will now always be able to say you know what I tried to take that stupid canoe over that. I would have made it too but we were not going fast enough and as we came down the wter grabbed the front end and ripped it to the left and then we went over. I will post some pictures as soon as he e-mails them to me and I figure out how. That is what I do when I get really bored I try and do soemthing different. It was very nice relaxing on the river the only sound of human habitation we heard was the occasional 50 cal burst and the occasional explosion. Other than that it was great. So relaxing. Now I want to buy a canoe. If I manage to DLPT in chinese and get some extra cash I think that is one thing I will want to buy. As soon as we get completly out of debt.

cool stuff

Wiggling Plastic at River Bottom to Generate Electricity

http://dsc.discovery.com/news/2008/08/26/river-power-energy-02.html

i thought that this could happen for years.
What I thought of doing is putting little turbines in the water submerged with power conduits running back to shore.
cool stuff

what you want is sometimes not what you get

So it seems as though the last two times I have tried to change my duty station they both failed miserably. The first time the guy that said he was going to trade with me changed his mind at the last min. and then the next time it was taken by someone else before I had a chance to put in my paperwork.
So I will just keep on praying that I get it. As the duty assignment I am trying for seems to be all the better. The most important aspect is that the deployments are only 6 months. For the army 6 months is really good. Then it would be the North west and closer to britta's family. So that would be helpful while I am gone. However the best and most important part would be the 6 month deployments. That would be so nice.
however It appears that even though when I pray I feel really good about it I am not going to get it. I do not quite understand what God is doing as it seems to be so much better in that I will get to spend more time with my family. However as hard as it is and seems to be to me. I will trust in God. I think that is what he is going to see if I am really willing to do. Before this most of the things I prayed about I get. I have very rarely had a prayer turned down. Maybe this is the time where I think everything is right and i feel that it is right to pray and ask about this and God just wants to see if I will still have faith in the end whether or not I will continue to pray and trust in him.
To those of you who are not separated from your families this may seem a trivial thing. to be gone for 6 months or a year the difference is only a few months. However that is huge. I love my family more than anything else in the whole entire world. I am such a happier person when I am around them. It is better to be with your family.
Maybe the reason I get to go to the year long deployments is so that we can develop as a family in a different way that God wants us to develop in. In the eternities 6 months or a year is not that long but when you are going through it. It seems like forever. I do not know and can not claim to understand the reasoning behind this. However I will perservere and drive on. It just really sucks to be sepereated from those you love for any lenght of time. espically if you think there is a way to avoid it.

Biography Monte L Bean

I like to read Biographys sometimes they are interesting you can find out how real people dealt with real problems and you can also kind of better understand yourslef I think. In that it allows me to think how would Ihave acted in a smiliar situation or what would I do differently. So here follows one of the ones I just finished.


The biography of Monte L Bean. In the back it has some quotes one of the ones I like the most is "The greatest test the church helped me survive was the financial crash in 1929-1932" (the great depression started then) Monte went from having a huge fortune - he was one of the top general managers of what was to become the Safeway Corporation and making 50,000 a year - to having 20,000 total including his house and car and everything he owned. he goes on to say "Like many others in the Skaggs (Safeway) organization, I was financially ruined. But, unlike some of them who went stark crazy, committed suicide, or became overnight alcoholics, I sought out Birdie (his wife) and took heart. When we counted out blessings we found that we had our youth, our health, our wonderful little family, each other - and above all, the staunch bedrock of our religious beliefs upon which to begin to build anew. We shook off the dust of our financial collapse and went to work again, knowing that if we would but abide by our beliefs and be industrious and not downhearted, we would persevere and thrive again."
And he did just that in the next several years he built up several huge business A drug store chain a sporting goods store chain , a grocery store chain and helped to found Shucks auto parts.
During this time he was called as the first stake president in Portland OR and the Second in Seattle. Absolutely amazing.
But something that amazed me probably the most. Is that throughout his business dealings he was not corrupted by the world. He remained faithful to the gospel in so much that President Harold B Lee came and administered to his son when his son was sick after coming down with Polio. that story I will share tomorrow. But about his business dealings he says once a tax assessor came and said for a 500 dollar processing fee I will save you 10,000 on your taxes. This year the tax man had been paid this way by the last several managers and owners. Monte said No and threw him out. He paid 10,000 extra in taxes but he was faithful to his covenants

So that closes my little bit today tomorrow I will tell the story about how his son met President Lee and what that resulted in
peace

a good reason

"You will have significant experiences. I hope that you will write them down and keep a record of them, that you will read them from time to time and refresh your memory of these meaningful and significant things. Some of them may be funny. Some may be of significance only to you. Some of them may be sacred and quietly beautiful. Some may build one upon another until they represent a lifetime of special experience." ~President Gordon B. Hinckley

"To you women of today, who are old or young, may I suggest to you that you write, that you keep journals, that you express your thoughts on paper. Writing is a great discipline. It is a tremendous education effort. It will assist you in various ways, and you will bless the lives of many--now and in the years to come, as you put on paper some of your experiences and some of your musings."
-President Gordon B. Hinckley

I also think of the scriptures as a journal. I Nephi... it seems to follow his life and it seems to me to be very similar to a journal in many aspects and many of the experiences. Especially the part in 2 Nephi 4 15-35 very cool.

britta fix my blog

i wish britta had her computer so she could fix this for me. i have no friends who read this and post. Also i can not figure out how to make my computers playlist work. bummer. one day i will figure it all out
peace

plants are alive

so plants have feelings to. I wonder if this means they have intelligence. hmm something to think about when i have loads of down time. hahaha not gonna happen anytime soon. http://spiritofmaat.com/archive/aug3/twobooks.htm anyhow there is the link to the site if you have time peruse it it might be interesting.
I really do not like being separated from my family. so i bought 5 gallons of ice cream yesterday and a bag of oreos. they are good.
I have pt test tomorrow. I really hope the remnants of gustav cancel the pt test but they probably will not. one can hope.
So I love the army they are the absoloute most efficent force ever.
today I learned nothing except that Inteligence preparation of the battlefield has some steps that were really well illustrated on about slide 123 out of 300.
after slide 25 I was p[retty much off in day dream world. I tried to study chinese for a while but I did not want to push my limits to much .
so I drew a picture on a piece of paper and everone thought I was taking intense notes.
When that gave out after about 2 hours. I daydreamed abuot all sorts of stuff
Like a vet pratice and flying in a space ship and about going home to my family. and many more things cause after a while there is only so much paying attention you can do before you break the bank then it is time for something else.
these last few days have just made me crazy.
I have a pt test tomorrow all I want to do is pass. I do not even remember the standards gotta look them up
peace
chris

i am back

so I just got back from my fathers house. It was fun went fishing a little bit and just relaxed and enjoyed it.
When I left I left with plenty of time to get home at a decent hour. then when I was half way home I somehow missed a turn and all of a sudden I saw a sign that said END OF PAVEMENT I was like what the.... and sure enough the pavement ended right there. I was thinking i have traveled 20 miles on this road and it is heading south may as well keep going. I need to go south and this road heads south. SO i continued on and the entire time I was thinking this is the part in the movies where there is a car in the road and a psycho with a chainsaw. Then I thought well I drive a big truck I will just run em over. Cause in the movies they always drive these little crappy cars. So I took heart in that. well I continued south on a dirt road for about 45 min till I saw a campfire i then got out and asked where I was and how to get back to the road. Their were a few people just sitting around the campfire chilling out. So they told me go down past the bridge with the water and take the first gravel road on the left no the first road cause that is a driveway but the next one is a road take it and head on down that till you find a paved road then take another left and that will take you to 17 which will take you into Fort Leonard Wood. well I did not see any roads on the left that were not overgrown with weeds so I stayed on the road I was on and that eventually dropped me out on the paved road then I wandered around for a few min looking for a road sign to tell me where I was and it turned out that I had taken about one hour to go 25 miles or so through the bush. Hahaha. so that was that then I turned my beautiful truck in the right direction and headed home. I got here about 0130 or so. after an hour or more delay wandering in the woods.
peace

first week

Well this first week has been one of downs with one up.
The first down was that I talked to this guy and he said he would trade duty assignments with me so that I would not have to go and be deployed for 12 months straight, instead I could get the 6 month option as a tech job. It would have been so much nicer. I had all the paperwork just about lined up and then he said he did not want that at all. He did not want to work with the infantry or the armor. It was kinda annoying if he knew that is how he was then he should not have ever got my hopes up. punk.
Then found out that this class is going to be rather hard. so that will suck.
then found out that we do not get any 4 day weekends even though the other people on base do.
also they are gonna make us pay a not small amount of money for stuff in this course. have to pay officer dues to be in the chemical corps. to support the establishment and to support the class stuff. And if I just say hey screw you the man can go and shove it. It would totally mess over my fellow class mates and they would have to pay more. So no can do there
On the other hand I did just get out of class and now I can leave. It is 600 here so I am gonna go
peace

well the first day is almost done

My favorite quote of the day.
"The composite Risk Management uses a holistic approach to identify what could kill me"
Holistic is being used in a way I never thought it would be.
i will be writing more often now that I have pretty constant access to internet and it is free. I like free.
Now I have to go cut my hair to conform to the man.
The man is always getting me down.
there are many days I really do not like my job.

Britta posting

Hello and welcome to Chris' blog. He is going to take over from me near August, September, sometime in there. He is gone doing the army training thing and won't have internet access until then.

I won't post here often, unless he asks me to so don't worry about checking here very often.