I went back to the nerve agent traning center

So yesterday I went through the nerve agent chamber. They have VX and G nerve agents in large quantities in every room inside the live agent part of the facility. It was interesting to go back for a second time. This time I did not fail at all. I got a blessing and was told that no matter what I would be able to complete the training. Every time I started to get anxious or overheated, or anything I would just pray or think God said I could do this and that there would be an angel or something there to help me out and there was. It was real cool cause every time I prayed or anything the anxiety or heat would just dissapate it would flow away from me like so much water. It was a very enriching experience.
This person was so evil that just by her presence can bring a very bad spirit into the room no matter the size of the room. Also no matter the distance from the person you could feel the evil from this person who was in charge of my life for the past 16 weeks. She purposfully lied to me and her superiors to get me to go back through this training. The reason this is so bad is that she purposfully put me into a very dangerous situation. She did it hoping that I would fail. One of the most interesting things is that she did not make her friend the class suck up go through the process again. This whole thing is very unpleasant by the way. The whole being in the protective gear and doing all that crap is very very unpleasant.
However in spite of all this I have learned several very important things. Firstly that before I had a great amount of faith in Gods ability to be with me and actually take away my dicomofort and make my body do things that I did not think it could do now I know it. I have seen it and felt it in my own life. Second thing I have learned is how to deal with someone who hates you and is out to get you in any way possible merely because that person can and that person sees in me someone who is smarter and nicer and not intimidated by them. The third reason is that I am learning that it really is hard to frogive and move on when someone just wants to cause as much harm professionally and personally to you as possible. I am still learning how to forgive but I think I will be able to do it.
Also When I was leaving to go to the Chamber yeasterday I invited a guy from croatia to church and he accepted So I really hope that he shows up.
All in all it was not a bad experience there were plenty of bad times and unpleasant experiences. However God can make some very bad things in the end turn out to be good things. It might takes some time but 16 weeks is not that much in the eternities. But man when you are going through it it sure seems like it is taking forever.
peace

Back to the Gas Chamber

Hello all, Chris is going back to the Sarin Chamber today and it is a super scary thing so please keep him in your prayers. He is there right now and this is his second time through, which isn't fair to him. Your prayers will help him be strong!